I'm wasted at this job.
I am a student at heart. I love to study and learn. If I am not learning, I am bored. It's that simple.
I would really rather spend all my time researching, speculating and experimenting.
I also love to just sit and watch how systems work. If I didn't have to "do whatever I have to do to earn money to pay rent and buy food" - I would literally just sit around and think about how all these systems work (and how to make them work better)
there is no spoon